I have this thing happen to me that drives me more than a little bit crazy. Although my body is utterly exhausted, all the kids are either quietly reading or asleep (and that is no small miracle, mind you!) and all signs are pointing to it really and truly being the perfect time to lay down and take a little nap- I can't sleep.
Because I can not get my mind to shut down.
I can't even explain all the things I am thinking about because it could be anything- anything! It could be a stupid song that got stuck in my head and keeps playing over and over. (I hate that! Please tell me why- why!?- they have to play 80s songs on the speaker system at the grocery store?! A girl can only tolerate so much Wham! before she loses her sanity completely...)
It could be that all of a sudden I start thinking about things I need to do or figure out- How I need to turn in attendance forms or the regularly taunting question- what should I make for dinner? Or remembering how I need to write out a grocery list, schedule an appointment, run an errand, etc.
I could go on and on here, but I think you get the general idea. And I am pretty sure I am not entirely alone on this one either, because although I fully admit I am a bit of an oddball, I have some truly amazing friends who are completely awesome and for all intents and purposes of this blog, very normal. (Thank you Jesus! They are gifts.) And they say this happens to them too.
I wonder how to practically apply the beautiful verse in scripture that tells us to Be still and know that I am God.
Because I really do try.
I have a hard time focusing, corralling all my wandering thoughts and just getting my mind to just be silent.
Being still takes a lot of work, ironic though it sounds.
I would really love for any of you who may have found your selves over here, reading this, and who might have an idea or suggestion that has helped them, to share, in the comments box below.
God bless you and make you a blessing, kind friends.