There is really no lack of things for me to do and so I really should never, ever be bored. I have a stack of books I want to read and a lot of writing I want to do, knitting projects and embroidery, a chair and a book shelf I'd like to paint, not to mention all the things I can be doing in my home and with my children...
But sometimes I find I am just too tired. Illness will do that to you from time to time.
Lately, I have set a lot of these things to the side and just spent time with God, and with the people I love.
I have a few blog posts simmering around in my mind, things I'd like to share, but I just don't feel the emotional energy to write it all out at the moment. I feel physically weary, but spiritually strong and renewed.
Through everything, Jesus has always been so close.
And He makes everything beautiful.
I found a post last week that spoke to my spirit, that encouraged me greatly:
"Nothing shows our ignorance so much as our impatience under trouble. We forget that every trial is a message from God and intended to do us good in the end. Trials make us think, wean us from the world, send us to the Bible, drive us to our knees. Health is a good thing. But sickness is better, if it leads us to God. Prosperity is a great mercy. But adversity is a greater one, if it brings us to Christ." ~ Ryle
I want my life to be about Him, about Jesus, and not about my illness. He is composing a beautiful song out of my life, and I am trusting Him even with the minor notes that sound a little strange at first...
"Suffering nourishes grace, and pain and joy are arteries of the same heart, and mourning and dancing are but one long movement in His symphony of beauty. Can I believe the gospel, that God is surely conforming, slowly transforming, patiently transfiguring, all the notes of my life into the song of His Son?" ~ Voskamp
Yes, I believe. Help my unbelief, precious Jesus.