All I Ever Have To Be...

I find it funny how I sometimes find myself nostalgic, circling back to the memories of other times and places and people and music... and sometimes I find, in reading an old journal entry or listening to a song from way back when, it sums up perfectly what I am feeling right now. Ever have that happen?

Lately, I have gotten more than a little sick of myself. Longing so much to be all God wants me to be, making some of the same mistakes over and over, yet striving to be renewed and transformed. Ironically, all at the same time, I *do* realize that transformation does not come through striving, but as a gift from God, by His grace.

And that's where this old song came in. It is one I used to listen to years ago, and it came back to me, unbidden, at just the right time. Perhaps you have heard it before?


All I Ever Have To Be ~Amy Grant

When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head,
And the thoughtful words of health and hope
Have all been nicely said.

But I'm still hurting,
Wondering if I'll ever be
The one I think I am.

I think I am.

Then you gently re-remind me
That you've made me from the first,
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.

And I realize the good in me,
Is only there because of who you are.

Who you are...

And all I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
Any more or less would be a step
Out of your plan.

As you daily recreate me,
Help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
What I can find.

And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.