I want to nurture my spirit.
Sometimes, the sheer quantity of choices causes me to flounder. I have hundreds of books, most of them deep, spiritual and non-fiction. I have access to hundreds (if not thousands and millions) of resources online, from sermons to articles to thought provoking blogs. And yet here I sit, listless. Acedia lurks.
What would we do if we only had the Bible? Would we really be worse off for it?
Don't get me wrong. I truly appreciate so many of the things I have been discussing. And they all have their place. But I can't help but get a little overwhelmed sometimes.
Sometimes even the Bible overwhelms me.
I pick it up, wanting to read words of life, receive nourishment. But I stare at it, unopened, and wonder what I should read. And then I get frustrated with myself because I don't have more enthusiasm about it.
I want to want to. But I don't want to.
I have tens of books partly read.
I need some follow through. And yet, I don't know where to start.
That's when I wonder if perhaps, possibly, there might be a few too many voices clamouring for my attention. Maybe some of them need to be silenced for a wee bit, give me time to focus on the best things.
I have plotted and planned and made goals and spreadsheets before, trying to organize the scattered projects in my mind. I am not very interested in doing this again. Rather, I am going to simplify.
Instead of feeling the need to read, study, and write about a million things, I will pare down, and focus on a couple of the most important things. And let the rest drop.
For now, anyway.
He makes all things beautiful in His time.