I want to nurture my spirit.
Sometimes, the sheer quantity of choices causes me to flounder. I have hundreds of books, most of them deep, spiritual and non-fiction. I have access to hundreds (if not thousands and millions) of resources online, from sermons to articles to thought provoking blogs. And yet here I sit, listless. Acedia lurks.
What would we do if we only had the Bible? Would we really be worse off for it?
Don't get me wrong. I truly appreciate so many of the things I have been discussing. And they all have their place. But I can't help but get a little overwhelmed sometimes.
Sometimes even the Bible overwhelms me.
I pick it up, wanting to read words of life, receive nourishment. But I stare at it, unopened, and wonder what I should read. And then I get frustrated with myself because I don't have more enthusiasm about it.
I want to want to. But I don't want to.
I have tens of books partly read.
I need some follow through. And yet, I don't know where to start.
That's when I wonder if perhaps, possibly, there might be a few too many voices clamouring for my attention. Maybe some of them need to be silenced for a wee bit, give me time to focus on the best things.
I have plotted and planned and made goals and spreadsheets before, trying to organize the scattered projects in my mind. I am not very interested in doing this again. Rather, I am going to simplify.
Instead of feeling the need to read, study, and write about a million things, I will pare down, and focus on a couple of the most important things. And let the rest drop.
For now, anyway.
He makes all things beautiful in His time.
Tuning out the many voices...so hard to do but so needful. I've learned listening to so many voices is a constant struggle and something I have to continually guard against. May God bless you as you seek His wisdom about what He'd have you focus on. Have a beautiful weekend. :)
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