consecration

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.

I have always believed this is a profound truth, but never more than right now.

How ironic it is that just after I completed reading a book about idolatry, I discovered I had set up numerous shrines in my heart to rival God alone.

I plugged my ears, not wanting to listen. Even as if underwater, blurred and indecipherable, I could hear His voice, I knew He was calling.

I ran like Jonah, as far away as I could go to get away from His call.

And then He sent a proverbial whale, that swallowed me whole.

From the depths, I cried out to be delivered. He rescued me. And I sure do feel like I've been vomited up. But I'm alive. And now I'm ready to go where He leads.

The shrines have been shattered, the call is ever stronger: to be single minded, to allow all other loves to be determined only by relation to Him.

And then, as if by happy accident, He showed me this gem while I was sitting with Him this morning, sipping coffee and praying up little pleas for consecration,

" ... his {the Christian believer's}attachment to Christ is all-exclusive. The Lord becomes to him not one of several rival interests, but the one exclusive attraction forever. He orbits around Christ as the earth around the sun, held in thrall by the magnetism of His love, drawing all his life and light and warmth from Him. In this happy state he is given other interests, it is true, but these are all determined by his relation to his Lord."  A.W. Tozer

Oh Jesus, to have only one throne in my heart, to be enthralled with You alone, to draw every bit of life and light and warmth from You, this is my prayer.

~amy danielle